I wanted to come back to my blog because I haven’t touched it in a while. It’s not that I forgot about it or didn’t have anything to share but more so didn’t know how to write for a while. University took up most of my energy and time which resulted in me not having time nor the energy to blog.
So, since September I finished my first year of study at university and also had my wedding!
The lead up to the wedding was absolutely horrible. Due to the amount of stress I was dealing with, I flared up to what is now one of the worst flare ups I have experienced. I couldn’t do anything by myself. Walking, moving things (even my pillow or blanket) and sleep was out of the question. But the flare up was so different compared to the rest of my ‘normal’ flare ups, not only were my joints becoming inflamed and painful but also my muscles and tendons. A week before the wedding I had to get a cortisone injection into the tendon in my palm as it had gotten so swollen where opening up my hand was very difficult and painful.
The wedding day was just as stressful but in the end everything was perfect! The reception, the day, the bouquet were perfect and the dress’s hoop had a mind of its own but still happy with it. I woke up sore, anxious and just wanted to go back to bed! At the end of the day, I just wanted to go home and sleep. Heard of anyone who wanted to leave their own wedding early? Well that was me. I was exhausted! Having chronic illnesses and being the spotlight at a massive social event was not my cup of tea!
Although it was a challenge for me to continue to smile through the pain, I was happy beyond imaginable.
Thank you to my family, friends and other guests at the wedding who made the night beyond amazing, the energy that was in the room was incredible.
Thank you to my husband who allowed the two of us to enjoy such an amazing and special night. Thank you for sticking by me when times became tough, when I would cry at night for no apparent reason you would talk me through things (and then fall asleep), thank you for making me laugh, thank you for being you when you’re with me.
Thank you to my mum. Who was there day in and day out, who reassured me about everything I was worried about, who made sure I was okay no matter what the consequences, who laid awake next to me during my sick nights, who watched me sleep just in case I awoke in pain and who loved me regardless. I love you Mum. Thanks for everything. You made me who I am today and I’m so grateful for that.
Having my own home and my own responsibilities wasn’t and still isn’t easy. I struggle with trying to come up with a routine to ensure I am having enough time dedicated to study, the housework, my husband and myself. Just before I started typing this I was trying to learn the equations for my biomechanics unit. I mean, it’s getting easier as I go along but the stress levels are still way up there.
I guess things will come to me sooner or later..
As for my health, I am doing better but still have the occasional flare. Right now my right wrist and right ankle are flared up as well as some tendons in my palm.
Anyways that’s all from me today.